feeling ...defeated for once .

MR test 27th april 06 , DONE
Er Test 2nd may 06 , time : 2.15pm to 4.30pm
HMT test 5th may 06 , time : 10-1.15pm
06th may 2006 - brandon's arrival at Sg , time . 11.30pm ?
PM test 8th may 06 , time : 10-1.15pm - revised chp 1 to 8 , left past qn unattempted

"i knew i am tired , tired of lifestyle , tired of stress , tired of the roles and identities i played . why ? "

i dun understand what really consitutes living up to people's expectations , life is really like a drama and we live under a concealment. i guess i made some blunder in my MR test , especilally question 2 , i was rushing like mad on last 5 mins but i did manage to finish . no time to go through what i wrote and double check , really feel like strangling myself . what's the heck am i doing ? and probably question 2 , i misinterpret the qn ... nvm i guess i just have to gambatte for the rest of exams . i feel like jamming out with my friends again , i miss them . Life was freaking irritating , i guess i just need some re-assurances. Some things i really have to settled is study loan , looking a job for my holiday and presumely some mundane things . i wish i had more than 24hours ... guess i am addicted to caffine again . my caffine addiction had increase that i probably insomia again . feel like shouting or screaming.

reiS...:<