one big round .......why...

I am really tired and need a rest. sometimes, when you just need that little cheers, you just don't have it. There are many choices worth considering.....why am I stuck ? Wasn't happy at all because the person doesnt understand me. I just don't like tp spoil people mood or life.

I am trying really hard but I only see the little effort ppl put in. Sometime the person who was with u just doesnt see the point .....only a solo heart.

Gambatte for work.

thanks JM for coming to gimme the little cheer I need.


Reis... :>

曾經深深愛著的那個人

感情有時是依靠著回憶來滋養的。記得當初那麼幸福甜蜜，愛得那樣死去活來，所以才會拖延著一段已經不再幸福的關係，騙自己說：「會變好的。」只是，回憶也有耗盡的一天。就像《再見野鼬鼠》故事裡的邱歡兒，愛著青梅竹馬的區曉覺，不願意承認他已經變了，已經不再愛她了。

愛著一個不愛你的人，是很卑微，很卑微的。含笑飲毒酒，也得為一個值得的人。他值得的話，那壺酒雖然很烈很苦，喝下去卻也是甜的。他不值得，那壺酒便是劣酒，只有笨蛋才會含笑灌下去。
但是，一個人要卑微到什麼程度才終於看到自己的卑微？又要耗盡多少回憶才會發現手上已經沒剩多少回憶可以用了？到底要卑微到什麼境地才肯清醒？又要耗掉多少回憶才肯放手？

曾經深深愛著的那個人，儼然是熟土舊地，宛若故鄉的一片山河，浩瀚塵世，普天之下，你只曉得這個地方，全然看不到它早已經成了荒蕪。直到一天，終於死心了，幽幽地轉過身去，才發現背後一直都有另一片山河。於是，所有的卑微都終結了，即使那壺酒是甜的，以後也不見得會為任何人含笑飲毒酒。我們從來就沒有自己以為的那麼深情

adapted from Amys novel....

I need a massage

Well, feel really overload with work. This morning I waked up at 6am thinking about work again. So much to do and so little time to spare. Going to become a robot soon.........tiring. Really hope can get a good massage. Hmm......isn't life about enjoying yourself? Okie, had a fun times doing event set up with my colleagues. Wow, today then i realise i am a very serious person sometime. LG keep joking with me and I can't seem to laugh but concentrating on my set-up. I got injuried by the staple and fresh blood keep oozing which I had been trying relli hard to stop.

Hmm, this year our booth look realli nice. Love it with red n yellow combi!

Gambattez!

reis love myself

Give a serious thought

was really happy for a friend, congrat that she is going to get married. Feeling touched because the beauty in life is really a blessing. count my blessing today I am still very much alive.

Really excited about the wedding, she asked me if I am keen to ber her bridemaid. I had never been one. Gradually begin to think about myself, my life. Where am I at 24 years old? am i still myself or putting a facade? Meetup with rainbow tonight and we had some subway. Got her a can of her fav tuna and she is realli happy. Glad I can still cheer ppl up abit. At 24, what do I need? Am i still the girl who yearn for lifelong happiness or have i changed and feel I need abit more freedom? There are many doubts in my mind and I can't get it off my mind.

At 24, I found a nice job, know great colleagues and friends, lose my identity. At 24, I gained a valuable insight at my life,a lesson learned. the feeling i give ppl around me are peaceful? being with me, maybe i am a peacemaker. I realised what I need.

A marriage between 2 ppl is a bond and route t0 lifelong happiness when they are truely in love.
Someone tell me what I want --- I am a person who wanted a family of my own. coming from a family like this make me want to work even harder to have my own family. Of course, no fairy tale existed but simply the thought was still a dream to me. To achieve this, I really dunno. My perspective changed after this lesson. I wanted to start a family but i wanted a man who loved me as much as he to this family we created. I shouldn't rush . afterall, a marriage is my lifelong happiness. I should have think over it carefully. I haven met anyone that can help me build my dream. I just knewI haven't till today.

Love may be a temporary measure that make u overlook the little things in life......

reis

lost and found game

Finally managed to watch "the wedding game" by Fann wong. Rent DVD and watch with Him. It's quite comical and enjoyable. Wonder how this short-lived happiness will last?

The outcome will be out in another few more days. Am I deceiving myself?

There are many options in life but somehow we just can't chose it. I am a simple women. A simple person who yearn for someone to love her just to kiss her for the rest of her life.I don't know if I had found Him.Maybe not at the moment, maybe yes. I know so many friends had already told me the answer. knowing the wall is hard and I stil go ahead and bang. Isnt life not about having regrets?Wish to leave this place...........



reis

A fruitful day

I am thankful today. For the hectic work, for an understanding boss and everything on my life.

Had a really busy morning after late night zzz. Almost thought I would miss my bus and eventually I managed to reach work at 9.20am? What's a close shave.

Omg, there my day just seem to be so packed with activities. Went for a heavy lunch at Sun & Moon dining. Tasted a very nice dish called foie gras. Well it really tasted heavenly! but the service wasn't too good there. And the set meal is very"normal" for such expensive fare. Next, some light walking around to get my Fancl cleansing oil at a good price. Anyway, gotta to start planning what to do in life. Been busy with my financial planning. Life is always unpredictable.
There are many friends around me who was very concerned about me. Sometimes, I just wished that I could heed their advices and get past all the hurdle. It did seem logical to listen but doing is another issue. Really need to sort out and hope time will reveal what is unseen. Yup , indeed how true is this sentence from BC.

Tiring, should had gone for more detailed medical checkup to find out what's wrong with me.

Gambatte!

Reis

what is going on?

a gift for me? cant bear to hurt another again.......

I am in a dilemma,in a crossroad to chose to take which path.
Really confused at relationship and everything.
If life were to go through once again, I would choose the path of being loved. Aren't we all have choices but somehow, we din or can't make it to the end.

Instead of being a hopeless fool, I need to think twice. Sometimes, I realised we do not understand the person closest to us. It is a pity things turned out like this.

Learning to forgive really takes time.....-_-

emo creature

So tiring~

Reis.

Encouragement

A little encourage from a fren recently .......

to friend C,
我也知道你不好受。
对于他不想给你你要的答案
不要在去想他了。坚强一点！
要有自己的生活和快乐！
真正爱你的人不会伤害你。
台起头，告诉自己别再想过去了！
开心一点！人生只有哪么一次，选择开心的你！

when life is at its lowest peak, it is when we discovered the beautiful things in life we fail to
appreciate. I need to help her.

reis

Really really exhausted

These few days had been the worst for me . I am really stretched to my body limit. So many
things had happened and not to mention out of desperation, i called up the idiot again. And what I get is a "can't be bother" reply. What a fool am I ? Do i expected a person who break up with me cared for me ? Enough! I need to really get this "negatively" out of my system.

Many things happened for a reason.

I really feel so guilty for her, i feel so helpless.

God, can you protect her and make her a happy person as like before?

These few days being with her was mentally and physically exhausted. how come a good natured person become like this.

recently, been to my hairdresses and she gimme a free cut on my fringe. thank francis. love u

U


reis