a peaceful day at home

Today I am resting at home, will be recuperating at home this week. Although the day might be mundane but somehow I feel at peace. I realised there are many people who really cared about me, no matter how much I wanted to assure them I will be alright. Somehow I am thankful for all these. Saw mum today at home but I din told her about my surgery. I don't want my parents to worry about my actions, my behaviours and things I do. Maybe in some ways I am stubborn but I really hope I will recovered soon and the bandage will not be so obvious. I freaked out last night in the bathroom looking at the scar... resting nicely on my rib (about 8cm?). But this is the decision I make and I should not regret about this.

Seem like this is the first time since I started working, I really have a good rest. I am able to blog so peacefully and enjoying the moment of candid shots with tiffy. :> Enjoying my music from Aslyn. It was really time to let my body have ample rest before I proceed with life. I really envied people who can just give up everything and travel around. It is not an easy decision. I had the urge to roam the world one day with him.

Cest' La Vie

Lala

Enjoy every day of of your life as if it is your last day!

Enjoy every day of of your life as if it is your last day!

I feel really glad I just came back from the hospital yesterday after my ear surgery. It was truly a remarkable and kind of terrifying experience. On the day of the surgery, I was there at 7am to prepare myself for the surgery. It seems neverending and the surgery took forever. I believe I was struggling with myself from 8am to 9.30pm before I regained conscious. When I was being sent to my ward, I seem to to visualise Leo calling me, despite I can't recall the panick pace he is walking at.

On the first night, I could barely recalled except I vomitted twice, and I was very weak and helpless. There were mutiple pains seared through me, I saw needle and injection on the left hand and left foot. I was very grateful to the nurses who took care of me during those few days in the hospital. Being bed ridden for four-five days, I feel really helpless and the nurses will wipe me everyday and give me the bed-pan every 2 hours(to pee). At that time, I feel really horrible. Thank for my family and friends who come and visited me during those day. It was really very nice and I feel comforted that there are people who really cared for me. Those days at the ward I reflected over my life, think about the consequences. I believed I probably expected the pain not as painful but it seems to pierce through my heart. Thanks Leo for coming to visit me every possible hours and I could see him really tired. I feel really touched and feel so guilty when he keep dozing off till 1am then he returned home.

I really wanted to thanks God to letting me to be alive.

Thanks God, Hope I will recover soon!

the simplicity of life

Recently been contented with the way things have been going even though life have been really tough with works. I realised that I have been busy with roadshows that made me neglect some aspects in life. Went shopping with dearie yesterday and we managed to shop till our shopping bags dropped. I din bought anything except a gift for my intern who is leaving soon. The dinner was great with very nice tom yam soup from Crystal jade at Central. Love the simplicity and I simply just asked for a bowl of rice to go with it. The giant noodle was really very big and both of us can't finished. Nevertheless it was a great trip and I truly enjoyed it.

Today I went to visit my aunty and have a chat with her and my god-bro. I realised that aunty have been getting weaker and I feel so sad for someone who bought me up. I love and adore my aunt, she was the best present God have ever given me. I hope she will recovered soon and I prayed that she will have a long life. I wanted aunty to see me get married one day. Went to west mall after the visit and find that with francis...(my fav hairstylist) gone , I feel so empty. She was really the best hairstylist and confidant for almost ten years of my life. I hope god will let me meet her again and wish her well with her family.

Tomorrow will be a great day! Happy national day Singapore! I simply love my country. Someone once asked me do you love to be a singaporean. I replied her "YES". Being in a cosmopolitan country surrounded by great food and culture was simply blissful. Being a Singaporean and having a privilage to get educated is a blessing. Somehow people around me doesn't seem to understand. Anyway, hope one day they will learn being contented and cherish the things they have being kinship, friendship, little gestures and thoughts.

god bless!