Monday, March 26, 2007

i need a good boast




I am really suffering from fatigue disorder after the lms exam at night . the 3 and half hours stretch my body to the limit . I was hopping to finish up my paper and I need the loo badly . stomach aches and tiredness , I really hope to take a cabby and go home straight . My angel come , when i was almost seeing stars , I saw a msg " i am driving , cya later."

Hee , a few minutes of waiting time and Tiffy lunged at me as if she had found her new food .
I was really exhausted and hungry and we went to eat my fav carrot cake at bt timah . I still loved it since poly times . Tiffy went for a leisure walk while i tabao . Then , she was kind of attacked by an insect that cause itching ,pain? and also two fierce dogs lunging .

I am already almost reaching the brim of this degree . a bachelor degree in management ? years ago when i was 18 , I never harbour the dream of studying in a university . Today I was still dreaming but apart I wanted to complete it . I had changed . I feel time and certainty unhappy relationship made me grow up . Actually, when i was younger about 18 , I thought of getting engaged and married before 23 . But now , I actually feel it is more about seeking the one who know your needs and the one u love.

Love now is not as surreal , not as confused and so clearcut . There is really no need for a 2nd thought for I feel I wanted to get engaged to this person . Hee , I am not trying to spout non-sense , it is just I am feeling really contented . There can be a distinction so clear cut in loving someone and having someone to love you . But in this r/ship , we are both parties and mutual. I wasn't confused . I ended the pervious r/ship with not thinking of a future , that person give me false hopes and in the end . Jealousy do destroy alot of things , jealousy made u a changed person . I also wanted to grow old together with leo . Leo asked me one day how will we look like when we grew old ?

my reply : we will look old and haggard ..5 years later to have kid , i wish so .
It was hope , it was life , i wish to have a fmaily life when i am 25 ... gambatte


reis

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Love actually

my first tasty unique chapati disc with beef , spices , bacon potatoes cooked by bf's mum( super cook)
with girl buddy at coffeeclub IMM




celeste interview at seventeen ...mag



he is the boyfriend . me the girlfriend






on my way to sch ,i finally see a badbadtz maru on the car ...kawaii



dreamy peiwei and me taking pic at sim






your first bouquet to me ... thank bf








my mama brought me a mango cake --happy 22th








heee ... love ya leonard



i am so mighty stressed , tensed now , another 9 more hours to account test 2 leaving me sober ... but i wanna to conquer her .
i wanna to stay happy , let hope i pass this test this time okie
ok , my back are aching from sitting down doing those accounting
peeps , do u enjoy my pictures .
march is a lovely months i would said i meet all my friends , heeeee
- need to study for leadership test on next monday , cant rest
- need to settled hr project
-need to settled dc project
-need to revise for account final exam
HELP ...!!!
must grind my way through !!! hohoho
reis

Sunday, March 11, 2007

thank you everyone

when I thought i had an unhappy b day ...probably due to pms mood swing ....

- my good friends consoled me , cheer me up and make me happy again(peiwei , lp , rogie)
thank u for being by my side all these times
- thank everyone for the lovely testimontials , messages , i just realised that there are alot of ppl who did remembered my b day . thank everyone ... :>
( to : ah cat , qi , joyce , ni , yen , jack , kelvin ,yuling , adrian , chang yao , rawlin, gerald ,ZR , felicia , zep , condy ( happy birthday to u too ) same b day :>and etc ....)
i wish that u all be happy .

Lastly , did i miss out the guy who did what ...

- using his break time to buy a pressie and having to walk to other outlet to get the bag despite your injured leg
- making coffee and breakfast for me for the first time
- bringing me to marriot hotel for buffet
- getting hurt by me for breakin his heart , for not understanding his effort
- trying very hard to make me a princess , to spoilt me for the day
- for getting me roses for a gal the first time in your life
- for being silly at singing me a b day song
- for kissing me
- for buying me a cake
and lastly , for tolerating me .

I love you leonard .. mr. mur mur ....our secret .hee

i finally understand , love is to understand and appreciate what the other person had done for me , that is the most special b day gift i ever got .
reis ...

Saturday, March 10, 2007

the wrong "do" u have ....

to be so stubborn and self-centered to care about people
have a easily agitated tempers that is overbearing
wearing skirt that are super duper outdated , so stick to jean better
getting a pair of heel is like lookin for a needle in a big sea mentality
not bothering to dress up/make up
having opinions of other things is wrong
servicing other ppl all the time without thinkin for myself
masking myself depressed all the times
having too many expectations in people scared ppl
being too prideful to admit mistakes
being wildful and spoilt at times
pampering herself with treats , snacks
not exercising alone
always so boyish like a guy
talk too much
not myself
loving baggy clothes but now ... definitely must change
being a bitch
being a slut
being a irritating person in ppl lives
having no sense of belonging
wanting to have love and attention
hating bee hoon

and lastly

being laughed at for counting down my own birthday at the strike of 12
blowing my own candle alone
singing b day song myself
feeling sorry for myself

is wrong ...... everything seem so wrong



F*** clara , i hate you .

祝我生日快乐

生日快乐 我对自己说

蜡烛点了

寂寞亮了

画面重生

祝我生日快乐


la la la happy 22nd birthday ...

I wish all people around me filled with happiness !!!

I also hope to gambatte again for 22 ren sheng start now , never be a child again .

clara

Monday, March 05, 2007

our invisible pair of wing "

" this pair of angels wing become invisible as we gained our foothold in life"

our invisible pair of wings shed tears for us
as if one day , it is torn
it felt hurt
still , it will shelter us
just that it become us who took care of our invisible wings

that unknow future that holds for us
will u still pls not abandon me
will u still love me ?
my guardian angel
when love become natural
the hardest things can be
making difficuit things look simple
when it is hard to come by

i love u .

bad dream pls go away ,

catherine : i hope everything will be alright for you but i hear no reply from u ...
liping : happy birthday to u and i wish u find a true love soon and stay happy n pretty
peiwei : i hope u will recover soon and regain your confidence , u are always so optimistic
joyce : i wish u become happier and married the man of your love
suqi : gal i hope u are with rory and be hopeful that one day u met the Happiness that truly belong to you and probably get to stay in aussie . dun fret , dun cry , me and joyce will be your shoulder
yen : dunno whether mr.thailand will be with you ?ai ya u better find a man by this year 2007
kaini: dun be so busy with work that u forgot piggy