is life any complicated or simpler ?

Hee..finally settled the otd report , and sunday just come back from visiting my aunt and zhang zhang. He called me " witch" cos i break my promise to bring him to zoo ... but it was really expensive , anyone got discount coupons for zoo? it was really tiring having to reduce the numbers of 300 wording in my otd report , it really drained me 3 hours of energies focusing on editing the report . what are the next better thing ... hmm .. i just accept a flyer job for weekend , only doing 4 days for sony again ... hee ,... was trying to get money for some things e.g.

top wishlists:

1. fugoh keiji part 1 and 2 by keiko fukada --- whopping $24 for a set u get from auction ?
2. tickets for forbidden city , was thinking of getting the student one ---25% discount , cheapest is $30 ....by kit chan ... really wanna to watch .
3. intend to set aside $50 for a pair of jean , mine is really torn
4. a pair of practical slippers , i had decided to get a OP one - either green or black .flip-flop

anyway , been chatting with mum recently about life , she keep asking me .... have i found my ideal partner ... maybe she is really concerned about me , what to do ? i am not an old maid ...hopefully not even when i reach 30 , i supposed life may be better having spinsterhood. Realy unsure when is the next meeting with lp , peiwei ,all too busy .
really wanna to breakaway from life , escape and run into a hole and hide .... dun worry i will come out unscathed.
gambatte!!!!!
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regard
clara

negative = positive

Recently , been getting this heavy cloud on my head and i really wish i could just jump into the sea. I had been undergoing heavy stress , i know i had always been a "ganchong spider" but lately i had been trying to take a break , or trying to relax. hopefully sunday badminton can proceed as usual and i really wanna to visit my aunt . i miss her badly .... haiz .

sad to say i got this otd project due on monday and i am beginning to think about fun more then this dreadful period . today just meet karen for otd project and then finally able to proceed . hee actually i am motivated cos i really don;t want to let my mum down . i wonder when is the last time i had been to town ? hopefully , leonard will pass his exam with good results . My rlship life had been good , i had been sorting myself out lately to realise that i had meet him already. I like his family pretty much , cos his bro is really cute to label me as "da sao" ... fainting ... but mark is a nice boy . His mum is one of those idealist but practical and she is really nice to people . His dad is one of those busy busy guy , seldom see him , but uncle can be friendly at times as well . Not so bad i am still able to get along with leonard's family . As for mine , i think my bro kind of beginning to like him , they will able to talk about everything especially soccar . Mum kind of feel secured with him , cos she mentioned that he look reliable and dad was nodding in silent approval. Thank god for everything . gambatte to myself , i want to look good too . it is really time to relax a day after otd . i need to do some facial , i wanna to watch a good movie , and i wanna to spend more time with him , liping , peiwei , my family and my auntie. Jia you!!

regards
clara

hopes ?

i have been feeling gulity about myself these few days , cos i haven really been doing anything . Fall sick again and the combi is rather interesting . sorethroat ,+ flu + cough . and i couldnt slept till 4 am ... imagine this time in the morning . i woke up at 9am exactly . omg i only slept 5 hours and nightmares are haunting me . i feel gulity .

what exactly happens ,i had really no idea and prehaps ...sorry .

i feel nuts about the issues talking with leonard ... i know he din mean it last night ,but i still keep thinking about this nutty issues . y ? being in a relationship , nothing can hid my pain , my past and i know we are a victims of past ?

gone with the memories
the debris remain craved depthly
thous shalt remain vigil
what gone is left unsaid
what pain have i felt
abandoned ...i pray to god
do u give me hope and made me lose my faith ?




reis ...

Gives and takes ... i am learning ...

It came to me a certain point of relationships , i meet some loser and i ended up dumping them . no regrets . I realised i had been a TV addict recently and just watched something about maintaining relationship on national day . wed? had finally spent my first NDP with Leonard and feel everything feel so great . I never meet someone whom i can hold hand and feel so comfortable about it , being myself . I admit i had been wildful sometimes , acting like a big kid in front of him . no pretense , that is me even though i am like 21 . When will human being learn to forgive and forget? For the relationship , i do give in alot and i feel really happy in giving in . But i do aplogize to him for being irritated at time at the mention of this gurl W. but what can i do ?

initially when i meet her , i tot she was all prim and proper and being my bf 's bestfren gf , she confided so much r/ship problem to my bf ? is there a morality issue here ? i would said ... she is just a pathetic soul . Infact i dun deny i dislike her , it was as if here i was talking rot about dirty jokes and she just feel damm ... irritated ... what the F*** ... wake up girl , come on u r 23 and acting like some princess , act cute and shit . i just dislike this particular person . ok i just venting anger , i hope not to share that same oxygen with her . i despise girls who did that .. act pityful ... damm , give yourself one BIG TIGHT SLAP . i dun deny that her bf did had a major problem which i observed but in their r/ship i wonder how do they sustain ? it is a sad thing ....

ok .. sorry , i dun mean to bitch about her ... but sometime i can;t stand her cuteness .... overwhelm ....esp the steamboat ... i almost wanan to spill out all the food i had laughed over her dumbness ... where is your brain ger ? i really dun like this person ... all the best to your r/ship , hope it last ... no matter what i dun want to stand accused of cursing bad luck to their r/ship

Enough ! i had vented my anger , hidden resentment ... and tolerant for months .

good day and i going to bid my catherine lim goodbye tml morning ... wish her all the best .
i just dun wanan to cry but i know she is stronger then me . ...

15 aug tue - MAB account test 9.30am
28th aug - OTD report - pair due

happy b day joyce,catherine n leonard

happy birthday leonard , hope it will be a memorable one for u
happy 22nd birthday ., catheine lim ying xin i will miss u :>

me gluttoning about swensen's icecream cake ... yum yum !!!
my beloved bb lecturer ... patricia ... very nice one !!!

yuling , rainbow with me in BB(marketing class) , she always like to act cute ... ahaha my project cum classmates

hey peeps ... recommend you to watch the movie "CLICK" by adam sandler / recently i had been trying to de-stress or so-called i wanan to slow down abit to look at my life now . I realised life is not everything about working , about studying but it is the life i am leading now . I missed out alot of things such as how my friends did message me on their daily life and all i need is to manage my time .

yesterday celebrate my bf's 24th birthday . it was my first time celebratin with him . All i wanted to do is to make him happy . my first attempt at making almond jellies wasn;t so bad , at least he din puke out . hee ... and then i make a big card for him , order a black forest cake at swensen and finally i am glad to have spend that day with him:>. happy birthday leonard . everything seem so simple and that was the life i yearn for .

okie , my cat is leaving me . lp , me n pe decides to give her a big hug :<

and to joyce , sorry i forgot to sms or email u yesterdaY , HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JOYCE KHO MING ZHEN ... GAMBATTE WITH ZS and for your studies ... :> i miss u .